I’ve written many letters that begin with, “Dear Future Husband.” I began writing to my future husband to help ease the loneliness that came with being single. What began as cheesy love letters to my future forever written by a hopeless romantic teenager, grew into deep reflections of relationship and commitment.
My young heart craved the affection of a boy who loved Jesus, and I promised I’d wait for him. I didn’t mean it then like I do now when I write those same words to my future forever. I’m not sure what I meant when I wrote those words then. I was incredibly naive. But now I know what I mean when I write, “I will wait for you…”
In my naivety I only cared about what he could give to me. Love and affection and laughter and happiness, but I eventually realized that if I had a list of expectations, I had to also meet such expectations because relationships are not one-sided. I made the promise to God to keep myself pure, I told myself I would, and soon enough I realized how much I also wanted to do this for the man I marry. The mere thought of me having the capacity to give the person I would spend the rest of my life with something so special sparked determination in me. I promised him I’d wait for him. I want to wait for him.
To me he is worth it. To me he deserves it. I don’t want to give my husband the pieces of me that are left because I already gave myself away to others. This part of the relationship, that was created for the sole purpose of being done within a marriage, deserves wholeness, and I will do what I can to give just that.
It’s blessed. It’s pure. It’s God’s will. It’s beautiful.
I pray everyday for the man I will marry. I pray that God keeps him and myself on the path of purity. I encourage you to do the same. If this is something you want to do, pray about this specifically. Also write letters to him. It sounds super cheesy, but in my writings is when I most heard from God about this. Now, praying and writing about it is when the desire and joy to wait becomes stronger.
Until next time,
Love, Sarah Lynn
This will be the last Songs of Waiting post until the summer. I need to take some time to regroup and pray, because as I came further and further along into the purity posts, I’ve learned so much more.
In the mean time, catch up with old posts. Thank you for coming along with me. In the mean time I will write other posts, so I’ll still be here. 🙂
See you soon, SOW readers.
God, I thank You for this space You’ve created to learn about purity and Your desires for our lives. I pray that the words here have encouraged and will continue to do so. I pray for every person who has read and will read these words- they are desiring to live a life of purity and Jesus, I ask that You keep them under the covering of Your presence. Increase Your presence in their lives and pour Your love over them. Jesus, we love You and thank You for You. Amen.