I hope you have enjoyed Songs of Waiting and I pray that it has blessed you in some sort of way. I keep feeling like I’m jumping the gun every time I introduce a new topic or aspect of waiting, and I realized I never actually shared my heart behind SOW and why purity is so important to me. So, today’s post will be exactly that.
I grew up in the church, but didn’t have an encounter with Jesus until I was 16. I was looking for love in all the wrong places, and Jesus came in and filled all my empty spaces. His love was everything I was looking for, but didn’t know I needed. I say “looking for love” very loosely because although I was searching in the wrong places, I never had a boyfriend or had those kind of experiences with boys. The story is still true for me today.
Sarah B.C. was happy when cute older boys would flirt with her. They’d tell her super inappropriate comments and because of that, she was under the delusion that she could get any guy she wanted. Then they’d ask for a picture or something, and she’d delete their number and move on to the next. But Jesus came and showed her the love He had for her and that changed everything. Sarah A.D. knew she was a daughter of Christ and wasn’t going to settle until a man after God’s own heart would come in to her life. She made the decision, and the promise to God and her future man, that she would not have sex until she was married.
This didn’t come easy for me though. Not settling meant being single. Not settling meant people felt entitled to direct my love life. Not settling meant loneliness. Not settling meant unexpected feelings. Not settling meant shutting down super cute Christian boys; this was strange to me because the first Christian boy who was interested in me wasn’t my future husband. *gasp*
My heart was completely shattered when I learned that the only reason a Christian boy was into me was to see how far he could get. Then the next Christian guy was shady. And the next. So I learned that not all Christian guys are the one. I was going to hang on to the hope for my man who was after God’s own heart.
After high school I was invisible to men. I honestly don’t remember my emotional state during those few years because a tidal wave of handsome temptation was coming my way, and that has been on my mind. Waiting was easy in the early years. I was a bit prudent about it and I was always preaching it, but little did I know that I was going to have to practice what I preached. Y’all might think this is silly, but I never ever EVER thought that men would be into me. I thought I’d be quiet and unnoticed until Mr. Right came along. I never imagined a cute guy slipping me his Snapchat handle that was written on a torn-off piece of paper, and having to shut down curiosity and throw it away. I never imagined the mysteriously attractive basketball coach from the opposing team sitting with me for an entire game. We had everything under the moon in common, but I decided to not dial that number he gave me. I never imagined meeting a handsome banker who made me feel like I was the only girl in the world he would choose, and me having to literally push him away because I found myself in a situation I shouldn’t have been in.
I don’t know everything about purity, and I have made mistakes. I can only write from my experience, Bible studies, and my heart. So my heart’s desire is this: that you, dear reader, will know that you are too special to be giving something away that is so, so personal and beautiful.
I’m only here because of God and His grace. Purity is important to me because I’ve lived it, and I know you can too. Sex and intimacy has become so skewed, and my heart hurts for people who have been drug in the mud by the world’s sex standards, but I do know that no matter how hard it is to wait, you can do it; by the grace of God, love of Jesus, and empowerment of the Holy Spirit. And one thing you do need to know is that purity is a lifestyle and it begins in the heart.
I can’t wait to share more and I hope you’ll continue to come along with me on this journey.
Love, Sarah Lynn
Jesus, I thank You for your love that changes the condition of hearts. I pray that whoever reads this will experience Your love in a way they have never experienced it before. Your love changes everything, and I ask that the readers will be changed by You. Gives us Your eyes to see the beauty within us and may we be built upon Your love. In the name of Jesus I pray. Amen.
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