If you would have told me that this is where I’d be at 23 years old, I would have laughed. I wouldn’t have believed you.
I never imagined myself here, but I can’t remember half of the plans I had for myself at this age. I know it didn’t look like this though. Never did I plan on being in youth ministry, much less singing on a praise team. I remember I did laugh when my pastor’s wife told me I’d be on the platform singing. I remind myself of Sarah from the Bible.
And, come to think of it, I never planned on being a part of a church family. I never planned on falling in love with Jesus.
I didn’t plan on the hard times. The friends moving or leaving me. I didn’t plan on hurting people who mean the world to me. I didn’t plan on death. If you told me that some of the things that happened to me in the last two years were going to happen, I would have either been very offended because you don’t know my life, or I wouldn’t have believed you, because my God, has He blessed me.
But that’s the thing about living for God. You can plan everything for yourself, but when you give your life to Him, He takes you to places you never imagined you’d be, gives, and takes away, people you’d never believe, and teaches you things that blow your mind.
This isn’t to say that He doesn’t give you dreams, or your heart’s desires. I dreamed of being a cheer coach since I was a little girl, and here I am. But God doesn’t give you everything, because He is God and He knows what He’s doing, and when you allow Him to direct you and you get to know Him, your desires become His desires.
No, I would have never thought that my life would be where it is, and I didn’t plan on most of this, but I am so incredibly blessed and grateful for it. Because at 16, broken and searching, Jesus brought me in, and I didn’t know that this is what was waiting for me, hope and a future.
Love, Sarah Lynn